money makes me secure/makes me HAPPY. shopping is a thing i can do forever.i want to travel around the world when I'm 21 cause by that time, i can do pretty much whatever i want. laptop,ipod,internet is my life. like a normal person, i complain a lot, talk/gossip. a messy person and also currently a bad driver.
cant do this anymore. i cant pretend all of this is just a small matter. i cant imagine how life will be next year. i cant. i cant see how my life will be. this is a fucked up mess.