since today, i hated the word "goodbye." mum and dad finally left this afternoon and it hit me hard. for 17 years, they have never left me living on my own at least not for months. 4 months till we meet again. i'll be alright. i'll be ok. because sooner or later, i'll be living on my own for college and this is a good time for me to get use to it. that's what i keep telling myself. it'll be alright.

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after going through so much of crappy stuffs/events, I felt so alive in these two days. of course the worse time havent approach me yet but I knew better what's next. well, I say F that. there's more than that to handle.

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although this may sound absurd but I'm starting to whine about not having homework from school. pretty depressing considering that these are mostly what we, the students, want. no homework, projects, etc. you name it. first week of school, no comment. people kept asking me how am I doing in this new school. truth is I don't know what it is exactly. not exactly liking it but nor hating it. I would say it is small, pure,strange,restricted,simple yet it is filled with so much goodness. I suppose because it's a Christian school, things seems differently. I felt so much like a good girl since I have to talk and dress appropriately. So much for a new environment, I'm glad that I managed to cope along with others and find myself with some friends.

p.s. world peace please.

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you know what it's a damn new year and that means new rules in life. no more private blog and it's pathetic to lock this stupid blog as if anyone care. life is just too short to give a shit to the "unimportant". went through friendster/blogs today and i felt detached. saw some familiar face and it hits me. i missed y'all. and all this time, i've been so occupied that i havent talk to some my old friends. sorry guys.

p.s. and i fucked up. it's only the first day of a new year and i messed up.

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