faith no longer exist in my world as it had completely ruined me. i trusted it again and again but it kept disappointing me. never have I felt so helpless and desperate. sorrow calls me, madness calls me, gradually i felt like i'm left with nothing but anger in myself. never in my high school time, i felt so bad. so unbearable that i think i have gone insane. insanity that turn me to someone else. someone whom i no longer know.

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sorry for the lack updates! been too focus on school lately. plus,nothing much have happened. well actually last week was homecoming. the dance wasnt that good but the after-party was awesome and people was great.DJ played songs that is completely lame-gotta blame the people who didnt keep it PG-13. huh,retarded. PG-13? anyhow, didnt took much pictures.*sigh *sigh. i'm just that lazy. but there's some in facebook so. that's it for now.

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finally after surviving this week,i'm done with SAT. i cant longer remember how the last test made me feel but this time, hopefully i have improved. after all the time i had sacrifice, it better be worth it. im so sick of it that it is disgusting.

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for the past few days, i had stayed up all night till 3am. reason:studying for test and more test. eventhough i took a short nap at noon, i never stopped feeling so shitty. physically and mentally disrupted with eco,statistic and precal. how i could possibly did so bad in those class. each day,i feel dumber and dumber. how am i'm gonna survive college. ironically, i have to.

got my licence but since my parents doesnt fully trust me,i still cant drive too faraway. really irritates me whenever they have doubt about my skills.

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