money makes me secure/makes me HAPPY. shopping is a thing i can do forever.i want to travel around the world when I'm 21 cause by that time, i can do pretty much whatever i want.
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money makes me secure/makes me HAPPY. shopping is a thing i can do forever.i want to travel around the world when I'm 21 cause by that time, i can do pretty much whatever i want.
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title: I'm sorry i dont even know where to start anymore. for the last few night, i've been having dreaming of something that i dont remember what it is but yet,i remember those familiar faces. i have so much to say now,bear with me. see recently i have been bothered by the question of where i want to go for college. & what i want to major in. this kind of question ALWAYS made me lose my thought. i dont know. i dont know. how many millions times i need to keep repeat that.
i have an ambition but it's not a promising job. and in the other side, i want a promising job for stability. security. it's almost like dream vs. reality. this is fucked up obviously. you know,it's funny how some people's life are so opposite then mine/ours. for example, those celebrities. they dont need to work hard(my perspective) but yet they earn so much with their stupid scandal etc. it's Hollywood. and that's how it works there. other way to make my dream come true would be if im a very very smart girl who got accepted to Ivy League. and for sure, that's impossible. i dislike decision b/c if it's the wrong choice,i will be leading to a wrong path. a lot of times, i wish i dont care as much i do now. i wish i dont hold on to myself too much. i wish i would just pretty much to do whatever i want.you know,doing some crazy stuff without thinking the consequences. it's part who we are,isnt it? and i wish i know what i'm doing with myself cause i really dont anymore. life is pain. i missed that girl that havent changed 4 years ago. the one who lived her life without much of concern of what happening. the one who have a great time with her relatives. the one who laughed so hard like a psycho. i missed Miri. i missed those great times. i missed that last summer. i missed all the drama that happened. who am i now? well,maybe i had moved on here. or not. p.s. I can drive now.just finished the class. p.s. listening to 21 Guns by Green Day. awesome song. |
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