i missed that(a long lost friend) so bad.last night, i felt like my world has collapsed and all i can do what just to stop there and stare. Like that's nothing i could do to stop it. to stop that very moment. but yet all i do was sat there with my ipod sitting beside me while im staring at the mirror and with the music so loud that it seems like i had cut off my relationships with the whole world. it hurts me so much that i want to rip off my emotion if that's what it takes. it even crossed in my mind that i might as well just jump into the pool or breaking my plate or glass(that didnt happen cause i only have 1 plate and 1 glass,i will need it) and it hurts more that i cant talk about it. it's all madness. i was mad. mad about why am i mad and why i'm acting the way i am. well, since all my roommates was all out, i decided to calm myself. I found myself sitting outside looking at the sky, the stars, and breathing the fresh air. It took me 20mins and unlike me, i ended up in facebook, making comments and joking around. And at the unexpected moment, i called AK and damn, that too made me feel better. anyway, the reason im writing this to remind myself what a mess i had brought upon myself and that, this should not happen again. I will be great no matter what had happened. Thou will not affect me.

P.S if you knew me better, i have mood swing.
P.S school was also a part of the reason i was moody

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